Today has been the most relaxing day I have had in a very long time. I had no plans, the boys were at my dads, the girls hid out in their room and Michael went to cut wood. I sat on the couch the entire morning watching youtube videos, researching the surgery and home organizing tips. I later got to go snuggle with my brand new nephew Charlie. Sometimes a mom just needs a day like today! As I watched and researched, a new fear set in ... am I going to get "too skinny?" By too skinny, I don't mean 95 pounds skinny ... I mean I hope am not one of those people who is just meant to be fat and looks ill skinny. I think until the last 50-80 pounds, I carried my weight pretty well. I fear that I will be one who looks older and uglier as I get thinner. I have heard and actually witnessed several people who have rapidly lost their weight, and my first thought is " are they sick?" When in reality they still had 75-80 pounds to lose until they made goal. I am not really sure what I will do to avoid this feeling, but my guess is that I will just power through it like I have done with every fear up to this point. If you have any suggestions or words of wisdom, please share!
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It cracks me up to hear all of the reasons that people have come-up with to try to convince me NOT to have the sleeve. They lump all weightloss surgeries together and they start telling stories about their Aunt/Grandma who had the "Real bi-pass" done and it about killed her, she can't eat bread anymore or she will vomit and since she can't eat bread her arms and legs are the like of very fragile twigs, no chopstick, yea that's right , skinny straight chopsticks with a chunk of chicken hanging off like big wrinkled feet. To be honest, I feel sorry for Aunt/Grandma Twiggy, but I am not too interested in her weightloss freak out ... the bright side is that I don't plan on having the "Real bi-pass" so we're good... right? ANYWAY, I have compiled a list of top 10 reasons people don't want me to get the surgery, and my response ... #10 - Your hair will fall out! It will grow back! I have hair now, I have never seen a case where it doesn't fall out... but if I am the acceptation to the rule, I will rock the hat and wigs! #9 - Your husband may get jealous & your friends and family won't know you anymore. I hope he gets jealous, in a healthy way. We are secure in our relationship, weight loss is the least of our worries. Will I change? SURE! Will they recognize me? Ummm yes! If they know me now they will know me then. #8 - You can't have Soda anymore Yea, and guess what I can't have beer refraining from that hasn't killed me yet. and I can't have greasy food or junk either, that is not something that is going to kill me, however, continuing to consume it might! #7 - People have had WLS and gained it back! I know a guy who cut his hair and it grew back... what's your point ... It is a life style change ... #6 - You LOVE food too much, you will never be able to handle it. You're right, I LOVE food, but not as much as I love my family and myself. After the surgery I will have to handle it, I have no choice, it isn't like they can sew it back on, or give me a donor stomach. There is no turning back & that is exactly the commitment I need to make the change! #5 - Are you even mentally ready to be Skinny? Are you kidding? There is FINALLY hope for me and I can't wait. Of course I was concerned about missing Fat Frick, but I will work through it and find Frick'n Awesome!. Again, I have no choice, what is done is done, and the thought that I can't mentally handle being a skinny girl is laughable when you think about it. #4 - This is the EASY way out! Yep, it is ..... 5 holes cut into my abdomen, a portion of my stomach pulled out through one of those holes. Letting go of so many things that have defined me for so many years. Leaving my kids for a week and flying for the 1st time across the country on the week of my son's basketball tournament. Weeks on a liquid diet, then eating ping pong sized portions, are all easy things to endure. I suppose that you are going to tell the paraplegic that his prosthetic are the easy way, or the woman who just got laser eye surgery that she took the easy way. Maybe the man who had a triple bypass should have just powered through. Nope not buying that one. This will not be easy! #3 - You will have to take Vitamins forever! As opposed to the metformin, the blood pressure pills, the cholesterol pills the insulin shots... Yep I'll take the vitamins. #2 - You could Die ... and so could you, on your way to work or walking out the door or brushing your teeth ... Thanks for that! So very encouraging. I could also die of a heart attack tomorrow. If it is my time, then it is my time. #1 - You can do it on your own! Have you seen my salads? 1/3 lettuce 2/3's toppings and dressing... and my exercise program, 2 laps to the mailbox 2 days in a row ... yep I am really making a commitment to change! OH and for those who worry about the surgery because it is in "Mexico" the bonus answer is for you... Bonus - Why do you have to go to Mexico, they do the surgery in the USA you know. Yes I know. Let me break it down for you ... It's true the hospital is in Tijuana, but it is in Baja California and is completely safe. It is certified by the American Academy of Hospital blah blah blah and it is just as clean as the hospitals her... there are 2 reasons I chose Mexico... #1 They have made it affordable, and #2 I have been telling you all forever I am Mexican... no really, I cannot handle all of the overkill procedures that the US requires, I am all about getting in and getting it done. I have to go drastic to make a difference. This is what will work for me, I am grateful to all of those who have concerns & know you worry, but now you can see that I have weighed the pro's and con's. |
This weight loss is only from June 2015 (I had lost another 51 pounds prior to this)
Blog MissionIt has taken me a long time to get to this point, but I feel like God opened the right doors at the right time. My vision for this blog is not only to document and share my journey with those who care, but also to encourage those who may be following in my footsteps. First and foremost though, I want to give all the glory to God & to focus on his plan for me throughout the journey. What you talkin' 'bout?VSG = Vertical Gastric Sleeve Categories
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