It's funny, this journey has already opened my eyes to so many things. This coupled with a new found dedication to Christ have forced me to examine where I am and where I want to be. I see evidence of Him working in everything we do. One week when Michael and I were looking for a new church for our family, a woman slipped in behind us in the last row. I later found out it was the preachers wife & since then I have come to realize that she always takes a seat at the front of the church, but this Sunday she had been lead to sit behind us. After church she handed me the note photographed below. I have carried this in my Bible since that day and even tried to over analyze it to the point of Crazy Frick ... but it always seems to apply to me and it always comes back to one simple thing ... "God knows you and he knows where you are ... he desires you ..." That is it ... I think God knew today that I needed to get emotional about this journey! ... I thought something was wrong with me ... I had wondered why I had been on pre-op cloud nine excited more and more everyday. I have even dealt with bouts of nervousness, worry, fear & wonder but in all of the emotions I have not shed one tear. I have dared to imagine the future of me with a skinny girl body, I have wondered about excess skin and cutesy clothes but never allowed myself to picture it. Tonight I had caught up on my daily homework assignment and thought I would check the Clusie channel just in case she posted something tonight, I have found that I am mildly obsessed with her videos. Anyway, as I am clicking over to her channel I am willing the computer "please have a video, please have a video" and low and behold there is a video... not just any video either... it's the highly anticipated before and after video! Words cannot describe my reaction, it was somewhere between a 3 year old meeting Santa and a cat tail under a rocking chair in a thrilled sorta way. So I quick click play and watch Clusie drop 170 pounds in 5 minutes. around about 4 minutes it hit me, if I lose 60% of me I will be 140 pounds, I will be her size. Kneeling in the flowers, posing in the dressing room mirror.... I cannot wait to shop at anthropologie ... I got a little misty eyed thinking about who I will be 2 years down the road. There was one thing I noticed though throughout the video that was a comfort to me. In every photo you can see Clusie's personality and her infectious smile, she didn't lose who she was, she didn't sacrifice her personality for a smaller booty and cuter body. Her smile remains her best feature. Here's the video, check it out!
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This weight loss is only from June 2015 (I had lost another 51 pounds prior to this)
Blog MissionIt has taken me a long time to get to this point, but I feel like God opened the right doors at the right time. My vision for this blog is not only to document and share my journey with those who care, but also to encourage those who may be following in my footsteps. First and foremost though, I want to give all the glory to God & to focus on his plan for me throughout the journey. What you talkin' 'bout?VSG = Vertical Gastric Sleeve Categories
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