So here we are ... already at the start of week 4! I have no blogged as consistently as I would like to, mainly because I am dealing with me right now and that the time consuming. So to get everyone up to speed around about week 2.5 I started having trouble with an issue they call "foaming" only at the time I didn't know what it was. I think it was a combination of that and a little acid reflux because at 10 days post-op I was to discontinue the Gex Gel I had been taking to soothe my stomach. Anyway, It definitely got worse as I moved into week 3 and I spent an entire 7 days vomiting up almost everything I ate. It was torture. Finally last Thursday, I stayed home with sick boy #1 and I made it through the day. since then I have only really gotten sick when I eat something that disagrees with me, when I eat too much or too fast or as lucky would have it get into a moving car on a full stomach. The other thing I am struggling with is that, even though I had not been able to keep my food down I was already at my very first "stall." I have added calories/protein and h2o in the hopes that this will encourage more loss!
This week I feel is a lot better in terms of confidence in my eating, I am not so worried about getting sick while others are around and I know how to better control it. There is something though I would like to talk about for all of the soon to be WLS'ers. This is an emotional ride. I do not even know the words to describe it really. I don't mean that you will cry all the time or even be angry. The thing is I still have a disconnect with what I desire to eat and what I can eat. To be completely honest I hate eating right now, it is annoying, it is time consuming, its uncomfortable and it is tedious not to mention the fact that I still am not 100% sure about what/how much/how often .... yet I have the desire to eat! I still have not come to terms with the fact that I will probably never eat and entire plate full of food again, I'll never go out to eat and finish my meal. I don't see why someone has to eat that much and even understand that it is too much for any one person ... but eating in volume has always been my comfort, my social time, the place I felt the most satisfied. I don't really know why I became that way, we never were neglected or went hungry, but I seriously hit panic mode when I think there won't be enough food for me or anyone else for that matter. I do know I was raise in a very large family and there was usually a lot of food & a lot of left over food to "clean-up." I wonder how and if and when that will ever balance out. I know that my eyes are too big for my stomach, even now I will prepare an entire plate of food only to get down a small fraction of it, then I continue to piece around on it until I am miserable. I will really be working on this mental aspect of the sleeve in the weeks to come. I finally had lost a pound on Monday which took me to 33 pounds total lost and 17 pounds post-op tomorrow is WWW, so hopefully I can add a couple more. If not I am really considering hiring a nutritionist, not just for me but others in my household. I feel like they could teach me how to use my new tool to benefit the entire family. One last thing, this week I have rededicated to making sure God is at the center of all of this. I have continued to pray and seek him in other areas of my life, but felt like I was saying about the VSG "Thanks for getting me here God, I got this now." That absolutely is not the case. I need him even more today. I have began to pray again for the entire journey and that he will use this to his glory. This weekend is Easter, in all of the fellowship with family and friends, I will need him there to continually remind me that I did all of this for a reason. Father God, Thank you so much for all of the blessings that you have given me. I know that I need you and that I have not been relying on you to work all of this out for me. I have gotten overly confident, forgive me! Please be with me daily as I navigate through these changes not only physically but mentally. I pray that you will use this journey to your glory and that even if it means that I will will connect with someone I may have never met otherwise, you give me the words to say when the timing is right. Thank you for this opportunity and all of the others that you have placed in front of me. In Jesus name I pray, Amen
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This weight loss is only from June 2015 (I had lost another 51 pounds prior to this)
Blog MissionIt has taken me a long time to get to this point, but I feel like God opened the right doors at the right time. My vision for this blog is not only to document and share my journey with those who care, but also to encourage those who may be following in my footsteps. First and foremost though, I want to give all the glory to God & to focus on his plan for me throughout the journey. What you talkin' 'bout?VSG = Vertical Gastric Sleeve Categories
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