I've said several times that the reason I'm getting the surgery #1 is for my kids ....
I do not want them embarrassed by their mama, and I do not want them following in my footsteps. As you know, Jaxen has had a problem with his weight since he was diagnosed with asthma at about age 2 1/2. He was on steroids and albuterol and he started gaining weight like crazy. When he was on the meds he would eat and eat and eat, when he had an earache or a cough he would eat and eat and eat and it became an obsession with him, like he was filling a void. Sadly, I didn't know enough to stop it, even my pediatrician said, it would be fine we should just maintain as he got taller, Ha no such luck. Today he's a 165 pound 4th grader and for that I'm worried. He wears a mens clothing and it is not fun shopping with him, it is very frustrating for all of us. I love that boy beyond words and nothing he could ever do can change that, I do not ever want him seeing this post and believing otherwise. The truth of the matter is, if I don't do something today I will have a 500 pound 35 year old son, that to me will be devastating, because I know what that weight will bring with it. I feel like he will go through a life of misery, because you see Jaxen, internalizes being fat. I don't remember crying over my weight until I was a teen and it only lasted a minute. In 4th grade alone Jax has cried over his weight countless times. We've been in the dressing room were recently, within minutes, it was like dressing a 15 year old girl and I've been there. I know that you start trying on pants and they don't fit, so you get the next bigger size and it doesn't fit, you keep moving up and eventually you're depressed and just shut down. You hear your siblings in the dressing room next door excited that everything fits, they can pick up their size shirt off the rack and put it on and it fits, they don't have to go back for the next size in the next size and the next size ... eventually you give up trying and you go to the accessories, sunglasses or hats or purses because those will fit no matter what, Kinda. Ultimately, you find yourself sitting by the door, waiting for everyone to finish their shopping while convincing yourself that owning one pair of jeans and 3 shirt are fine , keep your head up and you go on. I have learned to despise shopping and avoid it at all costs. That being said ... I've picked up a few tips and tricks of from being an obese child/person and raising an obese child. I will also share from our journey along the way. I'd like to give some insight to parents who may be going through the same thing.
Bottom line is, it starts with me. I will be posting throughout this journey the things I've learned in raising in a big boy and hopefully by the end of this journey I can celebrate that he, like me, has gotten healthy. I pray everyday that God gives me the wisdom in raising him to teach him what's good and what's not good.
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This weight loss is only from June 2015 (I had lost another 51 pounds prior to this)
Blog MissionIt has taken me a long time to get to this point, but I feel like God opened the right doors at the right time. My vision for this blog is not only to document and share my journey with those who care, but also to encourage those who may be following in my footsteps. First and foremost though, I want to give all the glory to God & to focus on his plan for me throughout the journey. What you talkin' 'bout?VSG = Vertical Gastric Sleeve Categories
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